Grace Given

A lot of Christian's talk about the sovereignty of God & about the amazing grace He shows to us as His children.

I'm quite sure that everyone can agree that we'll never really understand just how great He is in His grace. How intricate and complex the gift of grace is, how much grace He in reality extends and how often.

Recently I had one very ginormous problem & not really a problem that I could even solve right away or make go away. The failure on my part even though I may have been doing the best that I could caused a massive dilemma that will only be resolved over time. However, in the midst of this trial A conversation took place where I was able to see that I had been extended grace in a very huge way. In such a way that you're just dumbfounded by the greatness of it, but also, in awe of the grace you realize how heart wrenching it is that the grace had to be extended in the first place. You feel your heart squeeze tight because it hurts that you caused someone else to work - put in extra effort to be patient,  supportive, loving and forgiving. You feel tears well up in your eyes because you didn't realize how significant the issue was or all of the little details that made the issue at last unbearable.

Don't think I'm overlooking the fact that God will work in the situation and in time all will be well again- a long time but it will get there. I fully intend to do everything I can to get it there at least.

I believe this is partially how it is with God. On our side- we don't see how significant our sin is and just how much grace God is in reality giving. We don't see that He will continue to give us grace on an every day basis because God's patience never wears thin. We fail and He allows us to fail so that He can teach/grow us and show us how great He is in being able to continually forgive us of our flaws.

The situation that I'm in currently made me realize - grace is huge. A gift that maybe I'm not that great at giving or perhaps I just needed to understand better what His grace looks like.

If a mere human could show that kind of grace & extend that sort of love- just imagine what His grace looks like.

Amazing. That's the only picture I can come up with. I guess maybe that's why there is a hymn called "Amazing Grace" eh?

Love to you cool people <3 xo

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Irony

Why is it that with when something really great happens- something really horrible happens as well?

I can't really do this. I can't handle this all by myself.  I'm tired of trying to keep up.

Everything inside is screaming at me to trust Him and to be patient,  endure it.

This is one of those things - I have to handle. Its not something that can just be let go of & waited on to see what happens. Nope it falls on me. I get to figure it out & I've pretty much been sucking it up. I don't know what to do.

Just. Praying. A lot.

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Shed tears

I think the act of shedding tears is so vital when you're going through something emotionally. It could be anything - stress, pressure, sadness, tears of joy or happiness, being overwhelmed, loss and much more.

I once read that when you release your emotion in such a way, it gives God an open welcome to come in and really do some healing work. We don't realize how much we hold in & it's almost as if we're pushed to, trained to do so... When we finally cave and allow ourselves to feel it, I truly believe that is when real healing can begin. Well part of the way. The letting God in part to do all of His miraculous bandaging is the real big part!

I know I always feel better after a good cry, and basically screaming or whaling out to Him for strength,  guidance,  endurance and sometimes just because I need someone. 

Glad He is always there. Always willing to listen.

Today is one of these days. I just want to release. I wish people would stop viewing it as such a negative thing.

If you haven't cried lately or cried and cried out to Him- I urge you to give it a whirl.

:) I know I am later

Love to all you people I love. <3

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Today

I'm taking time to do two things: 1)Examine myself & where I'm at, and also where God is taking me & 2) Enjoying the things that make me smile.

So far today I thoroughly enjoyed learning the Word in Church, talking theology, and lastly but not related at all- kisses on the neck. Lol ...

Thankful for A God who is able to do more than I can even imagine. I really need Him. Can't really seem to do much of anything on my own. Thankful for a God who cares to do and do more, Who forgives and forgives more and loves and loves more. Haha

Yea. If you're looking for something that is out of this world- find Him. Find God. He is all that anyone needs.

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Something I love...

I love when someone writes to you, no I'm not referring to email but an actual letter or poem. If you're anything like me, you keep them and store them away so you'll always have them. I love going back and just re-reading those! It makes me smile but also makes me remember such sweet & fond memories.
Thankful for the people who still write with actual pen & paper. :) <3

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Lately

It seems as though I've just been swallowed up & consumed with: sadness, questions, confusion, doubts, feelings of hopelessness and a lot of other things. Usually this would be because I've allowed the world to get me down or in my head. Lately though it isn't the world it's the people who call themselves Christian, and this is including me.
Why do we allow ourselves to compromise?  Allow ourselves to be OK with sin? Why do we pick and choose which of God's laws we are going to follow? Why don't we follow them all? If we believe God wants our best and that is Him and His word than why aren't we trying harder to actually live to that standard?  I see more and more people giving in to sin, allowing it in certain areas of their life because it makes them feel good or better (so they think at the time.) I see people choosing other people over God. I see kids hurting be because their parents are making sinful choices. And it just seems to get worse. All my mind can ask is why? Why don't we care more about this amazing love that He has for us? Why aren't we trying harder? 

Am I compromising?  Can I try harder?  What can I do to help my brothers and sisters? Will I lose another over speaking the truth?

Yea. That's all for now.

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just my opinion

Sometimes I just wish I knew what was going on in people's minds.



I want the best for the people I love and I will never cease to speak the truth to those who have a place in my heart.

Sin ruins lives, destroys homes, and reaps consequences that are negative... Why would I tell you then that it's ok to go ahead on in your sin? I wouldn't and won't ever.

Choose to love or hate me for that- but this will never change about me.



People have been rough lately and I'm not walking away from anyone still.

I think its quite funny that what at one time someone really respected you for - all of a sudden its not respectable now... Hmm

Something doesn't sound right.

Kinda goes back to that pick and choose what i love about you point of view...

Yea- Really Not Love. . .

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musings from the heart

It's funny to me how usually people only love parts of you or perhaps one side of you. And usually it's the side that suits them best.. It's funny that people pick and choose what parts of you they want to love ... Or is it? Nah- not really....

You're unkind, say stupid things, & are awkward during conversations. You lie, cheat, commit sin in your thoughts but may never act on them, you say hurtful things and are negative. You complain and gripe, start trouble and are selfish...

Guess what? I do as well....

I'm a sinner made saint by His blood- neither one changes. I'm always going to be a sinner and so are you. Love me or hate me- take it or leave it. But get it straight- I'm no better than you & you are definitely no better than me.

We are commanded to love, restore and build up. Why is this so hard?

If you really pay attention: people who are hurting other people are often hurting inside themselves!

So maybe we could try and help instead... Somehow... Prayer is usually a good place to start..

Anyways- Randoms from the heart. Sorry! ;)

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