lately

Feeling a little buried lately. I wish it were beneath a million blankets - that'd be tons better. And then there are days like today... A little glimmer of something sweet. And so extremely difficult, too. And even though it is difficult - it makes so much difference. Why?

Doing an online bible study thing with a group of gals. And all of the verses remind me of just how much it starts with me. Where am I at? I've had difficulty in knowing that lately. I'm not really in a season of growth, or haven't been and that's ok because I had just gotten out of a really hard one. However - just because I'm not I still have my relationship to maintain. How is that going? I've been doing so much and I really haven't even thought about it and yet I've been doing all the normal things. Listening to my worship, getting my worship on - reading the Word, not as much - admittedly. And I'm doing all the regular life stuff. But I just feel buried. Not really "functioning" persay as, a christian woman. I just want to be alone.

I'm not really a "go through the motions" type of person, but that's exactly how it feels. Nothing has penetrated my heart or mind lately. Gods spirit moves me in Worship, but that's where it ends.

Seasons of life, - fun. :p

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scripture for the season of the storm

Psalm 77:1-13
I cry aloud to God,
aloud to God, and he will hear me.
In the day of my trouble I seek the Lord; in the night my hand is stretched out without wearying;
my soul refuses to be comforted.
When I remember God, I moan;
when I meditate, my spirit faints. Selah
You hold my eyelids open;
I am so troubled that I cannot speak.
I consider the days of old,
the years long ago.
I said, “Let me remember my song in the night; let me meditate in my heart.”
Then my spirit made a diligent search:
“Will the Lord spurn forever,
and never again be favorable?
Has his steadfast love forever ceased?
Are his promises at an end for all time?
Has God forgotten to be gracious?
Has he in anger shut up his compassion?” Selah
Then I said, “I will appeal to this,
to the years of the right hand of the Most High.”
I will remember the deeds of the Lord; yes, I will remember your wonders of old.
I will ponder all your work,
and meditate on your mighty deeds.
Your way, O God, is holy.
What god is great like our God?

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