Today I started a new book that was lended to me by a dear friend. It's not really a devotional book persay but rather a book of testimonies about women who went through various trials/struggles and how they were brought back to the Lord from those trials/struggles.
It just had me thinking; I'm so incredibly thankful and grateful for all of that which God has brought me through. It seems as though my story pales in comparison to some of the ones in this book and I think when you have a really traumatic story it's cool to read how other people made it through even more traumatic events in the same way, really the only way there is- through Him.
In one of the stories - a girl who had been raped and of course I can relate because I have been molested, but anyways she ended up getting into all sorts of stuff such as: satanism, new age religion and just other things that completely ruined her life for a long time. At one point in the book she claims to have actually heard satan speaking to her! How insane is that, but honestly I can believe that it happened... Satan whispering thoughts that were actually orders: kill yourself and kill your family as well.... You'll never get out of this and you'll always be the same. You're never going to change....
If you have made it through something like rape/molestation you know how easy it is to swallow these lies and she did- she attempted suicide on more than one occasion. It's so sad to me because if you know the truth you know that it's the exact opposite of what God wants for you! It's so ironic though how mostly today - this doesn't even have to be satan speaking to every day women - It's usually other people! Just recently I had someone that made me feel this way - And I pretty much almost let it destroy my entire day.
It's insane to me the extremes that we go to all because of pain and abuse. And now, in the world that we live in it happens so much more than ever before. It isn't a rare thing at all. Just in the past year I probably have met 4 women/young women that have been abused or molested. It's so sad but I also am thankful again because each of them know the truth, they know who Jesus is and how important it is to have a relationship with Christ. And they also know what Christ has said about them, the promise's that He has made for their lives and how much He loves them! That is my prayer for so many women who suffer - That they might come to know of these truths as well and that they might be revealed to just how true it really is....
Another thing that I was thinking of is how often we compromise.... We allow ourselves to feel worthless - I know I still do at times... Because of the way other people talk to or treat us. We give them this power and we allow Christ a backseat while we feel these emotions and have all of these horrid thoughts. What a dopey compromise! It's seriously one of our greatest downfalls! Another note of thankfulness: Christ still see's us in our human weaknesses and puts positive people in our lives, verses in our minds and often for me- songs of praise in our thoughts! Without these things I would probably be far worse than I am today.
I think it's amazing how God never compromise's... After watching day in and day out, of probably very repetitive, disasterous compromising decisions and situations - He never compromise's His truths, His promise's and His love. It's always there. I don't have to worry about it being in jeporady, it's never going to be taken away and I'm never going to lose any of it. He never makes decisions that are going to result in my downfall or anyone else's or that is going to cause destruction. He never makes selfish decisions and He ALWAYS keeps us in the forefront of His mind. We are never on the back burner, He wants us to do love Him, He wants us to succeed, to be ok and good, He wants us to have a bright future, He wants us to have hope and love! So very glad of that!
Not sure what the point of this blog was.... Just to say I guess that I'm thankful that I didn't have it any worse than I did, that I am thankful for what He has brought me out of and very thankful of where I'm at now ... Oh and that I'm thankful for the Him and the people who help keep me here!
He is pretty cool.
I'm done blabbering now :) Sorry I haven't been posting lately - Let's just say I have a lot of "unpublished blogs" that I'm praying about posting!
Love y'all!
No comments:
Post a Comment