Praying.

Lord,
You know my heart when it's hurting and broken, when there are no words to be spoken you still hear. Where is my love? Is it focused on you? I'm trying, and even in my trying I'm still somehow crumbled and shaken all over the ground like bits of what seems as less than dust. I can't help but be uncertain about what is happening and why - in my mind I know You already have a plan, but the question still lingers - will I trust that? Please, continue to stretch and grow - take away what you may or provide what you will and wont. Forgive me in my falling short - I'm helpless without every bit of You. I know I've made mistakes and I ask that you help me to identify them, I wanna change and be more, better. What is Your will O my sweet Lord that you would want me? Show me day by day who I can be, what I can do for You and to bring Your name praise and glory. Do what You can with what I've made - a wretched mess .And help me to trust You alone. There is no man to be praised, no man to be trusted and Lord, You're the One who works all things together for my life - Your life. Thank you for your patience, but most of all for really loving me.
In Your name
Amen