Being “brave” sucks ….Being “strong” sucks too…. Being “courageous”
yep that one is no fun either…
So then, if all of these things suck so bad and if sometimes
being these things mean some of the most painful times in your life; why
exactly do we be them?
We do them because we care. We do them because no one else
has the heart to do them. Who knows
maybe some people do them because it’s just what they are driven to do…
Some people have patience, some people have structure, and
some may have impeccable timing, or have some kind of action that they’re good
at… Mine happens to be love/passion. Let me tell you, that sucks too most of
the time.
I open my heart to things that normal people wouldn’t open
their hearts too. I allow myself to feel to the fullest instead of living as if
being hurt is going to kill me. What’s wrong with a little hurt now and again
anyways? I love and I feel, and I am passionate in those two things together.
Perhaps a downfall some may say. We are called to guard our hearts, so am I
doing something wrong? I don’t think so, not when the people and things that
you love are the things that God has intentionally called you to love and be a
part of. Not when those things or people are a tool to get you to where He
wants you to be spiritually and then maybe even in return, you’re being used as
a tool as well…
Funny how life works sometimes, you never really think about
the amazing things that come from doing the most horrid and scary things. In
that scary moment all you can think of is; why and what, who and when, this and
that… You make yourself crazy, overthinking and asking every possible question
you could ask. Then when you get to the end and things are way better than you
could have ever imagined them to be, when things seem so amazingly perfect that
you can’t even remember all of the bad that happened along the way – you finally
get it…
That aha moment. The big picture God was begging you to be
patient for all along the way. Pretty much insisting that you trust and that
you have faith. He is patient as He drills this into our heads and He lets us
mess up without even counting how many times we do. He molds our minds and
hearts and makes us the things He needs us to be, and yeah, it may cause a
little pain in the process. Isn’t it so very worth it in the end though? Yeah,
I think it very much is.
He is so worth it and in the end, even if things didn’t
turn out to be amazing. If I am doing what He wants, I will be content or at
least; I will try my very hardest to be!
2 Corinthians 9:8 And
God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all
times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.
1 Timothy 6:6 But godliness
with contentment is great gain.
But he said to me, “My grace is
sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will
boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may
rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses,
insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am
strong.
Philippians 2:3-5
Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others
more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his
own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among
yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus,
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